What happened to me again~.~, feels like wanna scold rude word in order to release my moody, but sounds good that I unable to do so.. Doesn't learn how to scold it -->"rude word "out :P..
I had fall into a relationship that I seriously love him so much but I might not know it clearly..
HE is treat me nice, care me every moment, I think he did try his best to let me aware and believe him that i'm only the one who he love the most,he always make my day and definitely , he is a good boyfriend, cant be comparable with previous relationship, I did feel happiness, sweet, relax when be with him
but I had screw up myself in something nonsense.. And i know it well, that's -->"JEALOUSLY".. I have no idea what reason caused it, its remind me always..prompt out suddenly in my mind, imagine something which may not happen in real life.. I had to admit that I always put myself in comparing with his ex, who had lost contract with him, who he doesnt care anymore, doesnt take in mind anymore,relation like even just more simple than a friend, I totally no confident, I lose in every situation..... wth to me! Why am I repeated this kind of psychology problem always~
That's stupid me! Funny rite?
Sometimes I just cant act strong and tough infront of him anymore, I dont know my TEAR since when may drops easily in every heart pain moment, I'm just simply too 感性? LOL.. My heart easily feel pain and the painful is gone through my heart to my hand, I may feel lose my 50% energy.. Its my first time will heart pain until this level with just because of a small small case.. What's wrong with me
Well~Well WEll~
Need to stop it right now~
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..Hmmp~
I must learn to think positively in every way, learn to trust him in 100%, dont simply put on a moody face.
Let's breath ~ 1....2....3....
JUst Just JUSt Forget about it!
SMiLE always:).. I CAN DO it!:)..
